That feeling.
You ever get that feeling when no matter how much you study, no matter how hard you work, you still don’t know anyhting? That’s how I feel right now with physics. I am able to grasp the concepts and memorize the formulas and I’ve been practicing a lot of problems every night as well. But no matter how much I do, I still feel clueless and confused about this subject. I am still unable to piece together all the pieces and create a larger picture of the whole thing. I can’t seem to take it into perspective and compare it with real life even though all physics problems deal with real-life situations. I had a study group session with my fellow colleagues, Amin and Sun last Thrusday and after asking a lot of questions, Amin went, “I think you’re thinking too much.” I think he’s right. Man, this better be part of the learning process, or I’m gonna shoot someone. What’s funny is that I’ve taken physics in high school, yet, I feel like I never learned any of this. I must have the worst memory of all, or my physics class just sucked ass.
I know it sounds bad so far, but I believe I’m getting through it and learning more step-by-step. (I hope so. I’d like to think positively about all this.) I just wish my mind would process everything faster. We’re going to be having our first multiple-choice test this Thrusday. Of course, I decided to take physics during the summer, knowing that it will be moving at an extremely fast rate, but I definitely didn’t see a quiz in the second week. Luckily, the professor said it wasn’t going to be on problems, it would be on the conceptual side of physics. That gave me a sigh of relief.
Last Friday night, I was walking alone from work and it gave me a surprise when my cellphone started ringing. “Who the hell is calling me at this hour?” I thought to myself. An old-time friend from high school - someone who I haven’t seen in ages and who I nicknamed ‘Shadow’ - gave me a call. He had left a post on my wall saying how he promised he’d call me. At first, I gave it a shrug, thinking that everyone says they would but they never do. But he really did, and I was really happy to receieve it. It’s a wonder how random phone calls can make your day. It shows that a person cares, and it’s sweet to know that someone was thinking of you.
It’s things like these that really act as pick-me-ups. Thanks. <3
